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Sunday, 6 January 2019

2018, You've Been Sh!t

I know everyone's getting tired of reading posts about the new year, but I promise this is the last one I'm going to do. 

2018, you were the worst year of my life so far, but you've taught me so much. 

Looking back at the year, I can't point out a single moment which will stay with me for the better. If you'd asked me before the end of the year, I would have said meeting my boyfriend was the best part, but i'll get into that later. You already know where this is going...

I guess when I moved onto my new uni course I met a load of new friends who I'm genuinely grateful for, but bloody hell did I lose a whole lot more. I'm someone who believes people come in and out of your life for a reason. I'm an optimist in that sense. People who I thought I could genuinely call my best friends stabbed me in the back and opened my eyes to the fact that most friendships are temporary. I'm too easy to let people into my life and trust them.

On the topic of trust, I got cheated on. 



Didn't see that one coming did you?

Oh, you did? 

So did I to be honest...

I plan on doing a whole other blog post on this because I have so much to say about cheating that I feel other people will benefit from reading, but long story short at the very end of the year I found out that my boyfriend had been seeing another girl for the whole entire time of our relationship. It broke me, it really did. But it also taught me a valuable lesson that not everyone is who you think they are. You'll just never know. You can give your all to a person, tell them so much about you, share so many things with them, and they'll easily throw it back in your face without a second thought. From now on I'm definitely keeping my cards close to my chest because 2018 has taught me that the only person you can truly rely on is yourself. I wont settle for less than I deserve. 

Of course I've gone through a bit more than just losing friends and being cheated on, but this isn't a therapy session and I'm not going to start listing all the things which are personally going on in my life. However, with all the things that have gone on this year, it's really showed who's really there for me, and I can say hand on heart that I can count all of them on one hand and it still doesn't take up all five fingers. Sure, it could be argued that maybe I should take a look at myself to realise why all these people have done what they've done to me, and trust me I never stop thinking of reasons why I'm not good enough, but at the same time I am who I am and I'm not going to change just to please other people. That's something I've learnt the hard way growing up. 

2018 was shit, there's no denying that. But it's changed me to be a stronger, more focused person. I will no longer tolerate other people's shit, and if you don't want to be in my life - bye bye! I'm definitely going to be creating more content around self-love and progression this year because I just feel like I want to help people get out of dark places that they're in and help them realise there's so much more to life. 2019 is the year I'm fully going to be focusing on growth- uni wise, career wise, and mentally. I feel like  so much is going to change for the better this year, and I can't wait to see what gets thrown my way. Because I've proven to myself that I'm strong enough to handle anything. 


  1. Loved this post babe! And sorry to hear that you were cheated on. But karma will come and bite him on the ass this year AND you've came out from that stronger than ever! I was cheated on and he denied everything even though I had proof, when he knew I had proof, he said I was out of order going through his phone *eyeroll emoji* xx

    1. Thank you so much hun! Lying must just be in mens DNA!... xx


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